Within the last 6 minutes, my playlist has played:

"Make Me Whole"- Amel Larrieux
"Ready For Love" - India Arie
"Always on My Mind" - One Voice.

Love songs are very atypical on my playlist. What happened to all my beloved angry, social, political Hip Hop, rock songs?

While I was taking care of a passing out/yakking friend last night, his long, drunken confession threw me off guard. During this whole episode, I couldn't help but wish he didn't seriously care for me as much as he does, even though I find myself occasionally liking him. Its almost as if I don't want to be loved or have anyone concerned about me. What the fuck is wrong with me?

I really enjoy his company and he's everything I ever looked for in a guy, and even more. There's just that small step... letting myself become such an integral part of somebody else's life, that I fear so much.