Since I entered college, I've been underestimating the value of girlfriends. There's a handful that I can rely on here at Davis, but since I hooked up earlier this school year, I haven't made much time to spend with them. Sure we would call each other and meet up for parties and birthdays, but we haven't spent much time just chilling.

Tonite I spent my entire Thursday evening catching up with these 4 girls. Damn we're busy busy ppl, but it really feels good being around ppl who want to listen, share their own similar problems, advice, and some back-to-reality jabs to my face.

I'm having lunch with Wendy and rec-pool tanning Fridays with Jess tomorrow. Maby even some hot tubbing later this weekend with them and Heather. A lil time out of our hectic schedules to just... be girlfriends. Sounds lame, but sometimes I'd rather be with my girls than the usual guys. Although I always appreciate the humor and blunt honesty of the boys, I also appreciate a balance.

Maby I've been spending too many weekends or weeknights with Nelson, so much so that I might be sick of him. The flame is out and I'd rather work out, see my girls, and get a kick ass body than be an emotional rollercoaster.

Ah yes, quarterly update time. Grades are in, Winter quarter GPA = 3.39. Not much different than before, but at least I passed O-chem with a B! Based on my calculations, including a huge curve and improvement points, I should have gotten a low low B- at best or C+ realistically. Oh well, all is good and I should pay a visit to the Prof to get my final and thank him for his incredibly lenient grading scale.

Spring quarter includes:
BIS 102 - Biochemistry/Biophysics
BIS 1A - Intro to Biology
PHY 7A - General Physics and 2 Labs

Only 12 units this quarter! So excited! Maby I'll finally have the time to work out and tan again.

Jesus is suppose to rise today, for its Easter! This holiday doesn't mean anything to me, though I think that it should. After all, my name does mean Christ follower -- which is a totally random, meaningless name given by my dad. At least everybody knows how to say and spell it.

Practical, unique names. Trent, Dante, Kalie, Ella, etc. I like "Trent" in particular cuz the Trent in Daria always seemed so cool.

HOME HOME HOME at last!!!

I called Amy a few times today and she didn't pick up, then Sameeran said that sometimes if she doesn't pick up he thinks she's dying in a car accident. I wonder if anybody (besides my mom) ever worries about me like that.

Besides my close girl friends at home and at school, not many ppl express their concerns if I'm ever walking alone late at night, or if I show up to a party by myself, without a crew to check up on me later in the night. Guys don't get protective of me. Neither do they walk me anywhere or hold my things. Maby thats a good thing, like they think I'm too independent for that sort of chivalry. Or maby they just don't care.

In any case, I'm a little fed up with this relationship and have been for the past month, starting with V-day. Am I just not worth any effort? any wooing? any concern? Why is it that all the other girls and all the other formers are worth it and I'm just not?

Destiny or maby fate? being the last person to finish finals each and every quarter. Only plant biology is holding me back from a week of carefree behavior. So what is this fruit: (a) simple (b)aggregate (c) multiple (d) berry



Answer is (d) berry. Yes, an orange is a berry. Alvin, my balcony buddy, threw this lovely piece onto my balcony. Its still there, and it will spend all of Spring Break rotting there, next to the Christmas lights that I refuse to take down.

You best believe it.

Hardcore studying time. Damn I can't wait to go home and do nothing. Spend my spring break with no agenda everyday, just go to the mall, eat froster freeze ice cream, go to the mall again, watch a movie, play outside, and do nothing. A lot of mind numbing nothing.

Stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking. if you keep thinking you'll just dig yourself into a bigger hole.

As of this moment, there's a mob of 20-30 shouting, shoving ppl standing outside my balcony window. I feel like an observer in a Brooke Valentine video where the girls are "throwin' them 'bows" and guys are making bets. Now they're all running screaming "COPS!", but I see no 5-O. Some genius probably said that to get those bums off his porch. Good Job.

Such an active little town we have here.

I used wonder how certain kids in class keep getting bad grades on such easy stuff. They'd look at that D+ and throw it aside, choosing to gossip about the latest shoes instead. Of course they studied, and tried, but sometimes they just don't get it. After two, three, maby four C's, D's, or F's, it dawns on them: maby its just not gonna get better. So they stop studying as hard, stop doing homework, stop going to class. Then all of sudden, they feel no impact from these unimpressive letters. They are numb to failure.

O-chem. The only class that I regularly attend. The first class that I ever got outside additonal help (2 days a week, regularly). The only one that I ever made flashcards for, and started studying 2 weeks in advance. And all this effort is damn fruitless. This is the first time ever, that I am utterly unsure of whether I can pass a class. I thought about summer school, but I don't want to make that an option. I've lowered my standards enough for this class, I just don't know HOW to raise it.

Meet Vicky, my best late night friend.

On my way to class, a group of pre-teen girls were walking in front of me. I haven't heard the word "booyah!" used so geniunely in at least a decade. It's finally coming back! That made my day.

Very early this morning I woke up to pounding on the front door. It turns out to be an sobbing aquaintance finding a place to crash because her bf kicked her out of his place (a neighboring apt), due to a heated argument and violence on her part. Of course, I let her crash at my place, it doesn't take much effort on my part. I guess I felt sorry for her, but not too much.

What I really don't get is how she always comes around when she needs help. I call her an aquaintance for this sole reason. Never will she contact me just to talk or hang out like friends. Our only contact is if she needs help on hw, needs to borrow notes, snowboarding gear, clothes, etc. Its a constant need-based relationship that I don't care for. We don't have anything in common, besides living in the same dorm freshman year. She probably considers me a friend, cuz not even her own friends would pick her up 2 in the morning. Gee, I wonder why?

This is where I draw the line between friend and aquaintance. Aquaintances are ppl you might say hi to, not care for, and you only know them out of neccessity. Friends are ppl who WANT to know you, take time out of their day to contact you for no purpose, and geniunely give a damn about you -- not in the stalker kind of way. Its easy to turn some aquaintances into friends if you take the time, effort, and care into it. But there's some ppl who I would never want as friends, especially the folks who only know how to use and never give back.