I used wonder how certain kids in class keep getting bad grades on such easy stuff. They'd look at that D+ and throw it aside, choosing to gossip about the latest shoes instead. Of course they studied, and tried, but sometimes they just don't get it. After two, three, maby four C's, D's, or F's, it dawns on them: maby its just not gonna get better. So they stop studying as hard, stop doing homework, stop going to class. Then all of sudden, they feel no impact from these unimpressive letters. They are numb to failure.

O-chem. The only class that I regularly attend. The first class that I ever got outside additonal help (2 days a week, regularly). The only one that I ever made flashcards for, and started studying 2 weeks in advance. And all this effort is damn fruitless. This is the first time ever, that I am utterly unsure of whether I can pass a class. I thought about summer school, but I don't want to make that an option. I've lowered my standards enough for this class, I just don't know HOW to raise it.