Over.

The end marks the beginning of something new. New actions, perspectives, habits, beliefs.

I never tried out for anything in my life.

Ran for the secretary position of the pre-optometry club this evening. It was a spur of the moment decision, and if I don't get elected, I think I'll try again for another position. Who cares if I lose. I can only win if I try. Sometimes I just need to try.

I never splurged more than a Benjamin on myself.

Bought a mini ipod from the Apple website this afternoon(student discount, of course). Now music will be in my life wherever I go. And I can compile the soundtrack of my life. Sometimes I need to quit being so cheap.

I never sought help from a professional.

Went to more tutoring this morning. The workshop professor knows who I am. Going to the professor's office hour 9am tomorrow morning. It would mark the first office hour I'd ever attend. Sometimes I need to put my pride away and get the help that I need.

I never cried about anyone to anyone before.

Mutually broke up with Nelson tonite. Almost a quick, clean break away -- my chin high, voice so confident. Before I could leave, he prodded me for more, wanting to know more of "why?" And before I knew it, it all came out. The answers, reasons, feelings that I try so hard to bury came out in vulnerability, honesty, and tears. Sometimes I just need to break open so people can understand.